Arizona Corruption

Within the mental health system, people forget some key things.

Long term effects of medications is one of those things. In many areas of medicine they admit to long term effects, but for whatever reason, not psychiatry. For whatever reason they seem to feel that their is no such thing as long term effects from a medication. Well most of them. A fair few have admitted they know and don't agree with those who act as such. Too few.

My long term effects was trouble with obesity and how like therapy can teach your body good things, negative things from long term medication are also quite possible. For instance, my weight jumps up more easily than others but drops slowly. Its why Ive been taking b vitamins, and so far it seems to be getting better slowly, over time. Maybe one day, i will be like normal on that front. It used to be worse, It used to be that no matter what i did, i could not even lose a single pound. period. before that it was that no matter what i did that i not only couldn't lose weight, but gained it no matter what i did.

I met another girl and we were friends a long time ago, years and years ago before we simply lost contact. She could not feel the pleasure of intercourse. Too many medications over the years had long term effects on her.

Gene has less feeling all over his body, especially his hands, so his gentleness is even more treasured to me. I know how much care he puts into it. He also has some skin issues from it, people don't normally have unless they have been medicated out the ass from a young age.

Some people like me, have more sensitive nerve endings all over. Like how your mom rubs your arm when your little, after a moment, that starts to hurt. It didn't when i was little. It kept being soothing, but after much of what Ive been through in life, you can't rub the same spot on me for too long or you essentially, start rubbing my nerves raw, even if your gentle. I had to pour peroxide on my legs they were so bad, though it wasn't for that. I discovered peroxide dulled the feeling on accident. I did it to thin the hair growth on my legs to make it more manageable for my razor, which worked. Long term effects are that even a couple months later, the feeling in my legs is dulled, to what i presume is normal levels. draw backs are dry skin. some areas are so sensitive that at one point, i couldn't even handle being touched even a little bit, it was just too much feeling for anyone to rightly process. Even with all this, its honestly, not as bad as it used to be. These things are long term effects that take years to heal, but, you can live with them as they do. Its just not easy all the time.
My body also adapted a defense, it processes medications faster than others. I literally was tested hours after being watched take a medication when i was younger, and they tested my blood and said it was no longer in my system and made me undergo all sorts of bodily investigations, putting their hands in my mouth to make sure i didn't have a cavity i hid things in to avoid taking things like some people do, checked my bra, checked my purse, checked the cameras. I mean, these people take things way too far so its been proven quite invasive that i took them and my body adapted growing up, to get rid of those things that weren't good for me. its also how i kept my head later on when they gave me dillusions. They faded about two hours after taking it. Yeah, they checked me too many times. It was... anything but pleasant. Oh and if you bite them, i saw another person get treated for "access aggression" after biting someone who put their hands in the persons mouth. its not like you tell them they can, they just do it. If you don't do it, they say your not taking your medications and make your life hell another way. that person was apparently on court ordered treatment so they held the person down and forced their fingers in to check with the gloves on. To my knowledge they were more careful after that. they aren't supposed to force things like that anyway. its supposedly dangerous to them.

The worst part is that they would tell you that you had a choice, but they did everything in their power, to force your hand so much so, that their was no such choice.

Anyway, I have not been in that situation for awhile. Don't even get me started on when i was a child. It was worse. Grandmother let them do whatever they wanted and even gave suggestions. You have no idea how many times i was flat on my back struggling in peoples arms as they held me down and physically checked my mouth. another girl who made a hole in the side of her mouth to not take the medications because they made her feel sick, they did the same thing to her as they put stitches in her mouth, which apparently wasn't a procedure that needed anesthetic in their eyes.

Their was this one hospital i was in as a child, got closed down. this one i know for sure, i don't know about the others but i know this one was so bad, it was shut down. they used to lock unruly children in a closet with a broken mattress which had springs sticking out of it. You would be locked in their for anywhere from 15 minutes to hours at a time, depending. One of the doctors liked to put children in their just to see what we would do and when i came out unharmed he was disappointed. when one of the younger children came out hurt from the springs, he was gleeful. sick bastard. I was put in their because he kept taking me off my medication and putting me back on it to see what would happen, and i kicked him for putting the younger girl in their. she was put in their for crying for her parents. She was put in their by cps, and was like four years old. Cps was saying she was bipolar. the girl was a quiet girl and nice, i thought she was pretty normal but... i heard the doctors talking. i used to get in trouble for that too. they didn't lock you in all the time, the whole floor we were free to roam pretty much. their were a lot of children, but only three nurses and one doctor that we ever saw. I used to sneak out and listen. It was the only way we knew what was going on really. I hated it. the children brought by cps, they specifically isolated. the little girl for one, she wasn't allowed to play with us. I loved the nurse who stood up and said if she couldn't socialize with the other children then she would call someone about it and they would do something about it. i don't remember much specifics. i just remember that whatever she said, the little girl was finally able to be with the rest of us and not locked up all day all the time. that was another thing. If you broke even one rule and they didn't want to put you in the closet or another child was already in the closet, they made you stay sitting on your bed, all day, the only exception sometimes was to go to lessons for an hour or so, which was a joke. It was playing "where in the world is carmine San Diego" on the computer. a few lil preschool and kindergarten, maybe first grade work sheets, some crosswords, and maybe some coloring or connect the dots. Far from the schooling standards of children.

I found out later in life, this place also treated my ex husband when he was a child. go figure.

Mind you, in that place i figured out how to stay out of trouble just barely, but still irk that doctor for all it was worth. I hated him. I was nine/ten years old, not stupid. Yeah... having a birthday in a mental health facility isn't fun for a child. Not at all. Especially when the children around you were very much normal. well, some of them were drooling in front of the TV or turned to gameboys to escape that the world sucked. only one of them was dangerous at all, and after he pushed a few other children the doctor just medicated him till all he could do was star blankly at the TV, when we talked to him he barely responded.

That hospital was shut down because of the closet. if im not mistaken someone either sued them after a little one got hurt in the closet or someone died and they were investigated and got shut down. unfortunately, in order to get that place shut down, i know from experience what must have had to happen. Also, i heard someone died, someone like that little girl, put their by cps. I still have no idea why they specifically isolated her like that.

I was always worried that it was her that got hurt. I left before she did and it was shut down about six months after i left. The only difference from other children's mental health facilities honestly was simply that they had that closet.

Their was this one other place though that got shut down. kept all the children in their own rooms, but it was shut down because of how many children were molested in the isolated environment and how much they made us all sit still and how we were only allowed to mingle with one another fifteen minutes a day, and otherwise were kept in our rooms and left alone, only seen otherwise to be given medications. I heard from someone i knew who was also their, that it was shut down. Good. Even better for her that her mother was part of the driving force to get them shut down.

The problem i see is this, they keep on doing horrible things to people and using such things to justify what they do.

For some things, their is no justification.

That wasn't treatment, that was torchure for children or adults in many ways. You don't put an adult in a room with broken springs sticking out of a bed, mentally all their or not, let alone a child of any age.

This is Arizona for you, and part of the reason many people who live here, leave.

I know too many people who refer to this as "a shit hole" because of the things that go on, with cps, with the mental health system, with the 'justice system'... its literally you are screwed and people with power abuse it all too often.

you can be raped in jail and ignored if you speak up, you can be raped in a mental health facility, forced to have your hair cut in such facilities. you can be forced to have your body altered like grandmother did to me when she had that dental work done to make my teeth less sharp.

Their are innumerable things that people get away with in this state that they shouldn't, that no decent person would ever do and no decent person would ever let them do or get away with.

I guess, thats why so many people leave after having been through something like that out here or seeing someone they love go through it and trying to help them.

So... i never understand the people who move here.

Like they say when a girl in an anime is underage and she is being sexual in any way while looking older or is a boy dressed like a girl or a girl dressed like a boy, "its a trap" i think they say the same thing about jail bait who says they are older than they are to sleep with older people too.

Anyway... it looks appealing to people with chronic pain or family in Mexico, but its not good at all if you have a family. your guaranteed to be harassed by cps at least once or twice in this state. they don't take your children based on abuse in this state, they take it based on "can i get away with it" to make themselves look like they are actually doing something worthwhile while leaving the ones who could benefit from help of some sort alone. Mind you, the job of social workers was originally supposed to be to offer resources to help families better care for their children. It was not originally what it is today. It was originally created to help keep families together and healthy, now its just a massive cesspool of evil and a child trade fest. They have specific groups of people they target, in my state, if you have a mental health history and they know someone wants a child or children like yours, and you don't have the money to pay for a lawyer and will end up with a court appointed lawyer, your fucked. Your exactly the kind of person they like to target. From what i was able to find, cps didn't always have the power to take your children away from you. It went downhill when they were granted that power.

In all honesty, i wish they would burn to the ground and that the families ripped apart would be put back together the way they freaking found them, instead of this farce.

Mind you, everyone gets paid for their part in this accept the children and the parents. its basically one giant scam.
 

Even with the effects of the medications, i would have benefited from more hugs and human contact, not less like i was most of the time. That dearies though, is how the system works.

 

Also, a mother lost her child recently, because of a traffic ticket. taken at birth after being incarcerated for a night, and forcing her to have her baby before labor happened naturally, so they could take her child.

• They really do pick any reason if they can get away with it.

   
• oh joy... and now they are getting court orders to have women forced to have caesarians and steal their babies before they are even supposed to be born. if they want to, they even have you cut open to take your baby from within, on the basis of mental health. and no, it doesn't have to be something big. they sometimes have the tiniest reasons for saying someone is mentally ill. most of the time, the person is pretty damned normal. they do it because they can get away with it. because people don't really stop them.

   

  They can do it even if they have the tiniest concern. its a tyranny that has in our human history started wars, the decimation of families. I can't say that i hope one doesn't start. To be honest, i kinda hope for something to end this madness.

   
•  They can argue you think things you don't think, just make it up, and its like "how do i even argue when its my own thoughts we are arguing?" something they shouldn't be able to have any claim to unless they are claiming to be mind readers. its kinda like the Salem witch trials only a hell lot bigger and a lot more people involved. kinda like... the crusades. only instead of killing people, though people have died, many people have died(like the father who died stopping them from taking his son, and children who die in their care, as well as others like the senator who died literally the night before she was supposed to take things national about what they have been doing to people). They think up the most ridiculous things, and in front of a judge. your powerless. but of course, you get told justice will be served and it will all work out in the end. But for whom? we live in a world where evil wins with people who don't seem to want to change that, and who seem to think evil is religion that isn't their own. No. evil is when someone harms another, and evil is when others make excuses to not help stop evil when it happens. Evil, is evil. Good is helping people, period. Good is, not standing off to the side and making excuses. To me, if you need religion to tell you what is good or evil, your as bad as the people who killed my dad because he wasn't christian, because he was different than them. The world we live in, is full of evil but not in the way overzealous religious folks think. its in the actions of those around you, regardless of religion, but then again, so is good. regardless of religion. most Christians Ive known, assume im like them for one reason, because they are taught that good people are Christians and bad people are everyone else. Gene knew better, was shown better by someone. Most people don't. they forget that to allow harms or inflict them on another human being, regardless of our differences or lack thereof and regardless of wreather or not you even like them, is in itself evil.

   
• Religion doesn't make you good or evil, you do. what you do in this life, does.