Despite the recent efforts of Governor Jan Brewer of Arizona, CPS it seems continues on in a business as usual kind of feel. It shows in the ways we as birth parents, as children ourselves, and those closest to the victims have often been all too aware of.
Recently a baby was taken from the hospital only because the woman wanted to finish their recovery at home a day early. It is not unsafe for such things and was easily doable and in fact the doctors and nurses were not being consistent with her which was why. She didn't wish to be lied to, told one thing by a nurse and another by the doctor, so for her own sanity and for the safety of her baby she made that decision. CPS, did not do any form of "proper" investigation, they merely used the grounds that her family used cps against her previously when she was a teenager though she had not abused her son either and her son was taken from her by force from her. Her own parents have since kept her from her son and adopted him and kept her away from even family events to purposefully use her emotional connection with the child she gave birth to preciously, against her to harm her and out of fear he too would feel the maternal bond with the woman who is their own daughter. Back in her teens they even convinced her she herself was actually mentally ill way back then, that is was happening because she wasn't good enough to be her sons mother and convinced her of a mental illness that would cause her or or son harm even though she herself had never been like that, not then and not ever. While she knows now she is not, that does not help her or her son now, and she is only trying to protect her daughter from the same fate as her son and as herself. The woman herself is much like myself in an aspect that she has ptsd, and has experienced the worst of the system and so... did not wish to sit between medical professionals who were not acting with integrity.
They took her baby.
Despite what many may think, this is business as usual for cps. Their is rarely any investigation if any at all. In my own case they had files from when i was eighteen, things that for whatever reason went missing completely from my actual mental health records otherwise(which brought me to question and i still do, how they had them) but they had nothing recent to the time, i was twenty two when they ripped me and my children apart saying mental illness, saying i could not do things they weren't saying i wasn't doing but in fact they were full of double talk and anything but straight answers because straight answers from them become lies and apparently nobody in that cesspool of an organization actually wants to ball faced straight up lie, instead they make general comments with no elaboration in which they use your own psyche, the human tendency to make assumptions, as their weapon. I was told so many times by anyone who saw the paperwork my case was bullshit and anyone worth anything could see it, could see they were ball faced lying to the judge and they even had evidence in their own paperwork of their own lies because not only did they lie but they were sloppy about it. In my case... four years is a long time to ignore and four years ago is in no way shape or form recent. I do however wonder how someone got a hold of paperwork Ive been asked about since when looking into my records mental health professionals who deal with that have told me their are no records for certain times in my life. None at all. But i know their were, not only because cps brought them up but because i had a case manager back then who actually talked to me and listened, about my past, about my present, about my dreams... someone who actually cared. She is now a program coordinator with Tetra Services. I wonder though... why that paperwork? Why when i was eighteen? Why can't they find a crap load of paperwork between eighteen and nineteen but cps somehow had it? And why did they have paperwork from back then but not from the years recent?
I personally think, the daughter i miscarried back then when i was eighteen, Amee', was probably luckier than me. I know it all too well, i didn't even have a child but id been in the system all my life... the moment they knew i was pregnant they were coming after me. They were planning, some worker i think had probably pulled it back then. Its really all i can think of since their was no recent pulls on my records when i put in to see who had pulled my records for that past year, cps hadn't requested my records since i was eighteen though they said in court they had. That is what i suspect after seeing the paperwork myself, planning to rip me and my daughter apart even before she was born. Purhaps it was mercy for her, that she died before she could be. It is perhaps selfish that i still mourn her. I have miscarried every girl i have ever become pregnant with, for reasons i do not know and no doctor has looked into.
The reason they gave if you pay attention to what is said in detail...Not because i was abusive or anything... but because they could. Happens to a lot of people. Most either learn not to have children young and wait years or they simply drop off the grid to escape, because they have seen from the helpless perspective of a child the system doesn't help but hurts deeply and they don't want that for their children, nor do they wish for the heartache of a heartbroken parent. If they can or they know, they run.
In this woman's case recently however... in many ways she is like me. She has postramatic stress from doctors abusing authority, people not telling her what was going on and so things hit her from left field... her parents worked very hard to make her out to be as crazy as possible to believe she herself was in fact crazy... they also told her point blank her son was never hers, he was theirs, and they wanted her to have another baby so her sister wouldn't have to ruin her figure with child bearing.
This woman... is just a regular woman who has been through hell. That is all she is. That should never be an excuse to put a person through more hell and she is more than capable of choosing what kind of parent and what kind of human being she will be, knows her family was wrong and has no wish to become them. Quite the opposite actually.
These are not abusive parents, just the children all grown up that cps either victimized as a child by ignoring their plight or by putting them in an abusive situation to begin with and making them vulnerable.
This is the truly monstrous nature of them, they don't go after the children being beaten, they go after the children of people who were abused themselves, no matter what kind of parents they themselves are and this... it is not in any way shape or form right.
My own children were not abused, cps never said anything specific accept a very general claim. They were not starved, not beaten or otherwise harmed, not unclothed and in fact had plenty of cloths and toys as well and my oldest had already made friends with the boy next door his own age and his brother was showing signs of starting to as well as he reached that developmental point. Both boys were healthy, had regular medical care... they never said i hurt them. They never said that at all. They just said neglect and made general statements that they knew would be taken as if i had by someone who didn't look at the paperwork closer. They also said that because i was abused, i was doomed to abuse them. Rather than go after actual abusers, they instead chase phantoms of their own making.
That is the truth of cps, and why i hate them. They stole my time with my mother and my brother, ripped apart our lives, acted like they did nothing wrong even when they said and did horrible things that were both illegal and abusive. Then they came after me as an adult, and took my children saying that i would always be abused and would always expose my children to abuse and would thus become abusive in this way. They made wild claims about my mental health and no matter how many notes i got from my presiding doctors over my mental health otherwise, insisted i had the most wild issues, despite professional opinion otherwise. in court, only the doctor they hired to say what they wanted was heard, and when the submitted letters from doctors were brought up, and their not being submitted to court, they excused them lightly to the judge as if it didn't matter. They knew those would hurt their case and left them out on purpose. More than just one doctor said those things. Those letters, came from more than one. They only care about what they can get away with doing, not about the children and certainly not about helping anyone.
This woman that this has just happened to recently... her baby should be returned to her but just as my lawyer should have listened to me and filed a retrial on the grounds that they did not disclose all the evidence, instead she filed an appeal. Let me just be blunt, if a lawyer who knows justice was not done knows these things and doesn't act appropriately and only files an appeal then guess what. He or she is not doing their job the way they should be, they are simply making things easier for cps as new evidence cannot be submitted in an appeal like it can be in a retrial. If they refuse, they are standing in the way of justice, not representing you... just enabling a horrible evil.
So... the same old excuses and the same old crimes as per usual.
Makes me wonder if our governor actually is going to do anything about them at all. I mean... if they weren't so intent on the children not being abused, maybe they might actually help the ones who are. They are so busy victimizing people out of fear and prejudiced that the children they might have helped die or suffer life long injuries. In their own care, as they spend so much time chasing phantoms of their own making and not protecting the children already under state custody, children also die and life long injuries inflicted upon them.
CPS is an affliction, not a medicine. It is a sickness in all forms, not a solution. More often than not, cps itself is the cause all on its own.
So... I have to admit... i hate them and if they burned down i would celebrate with every other person they have hurt. after worrying about finding my own children since they ball faced lied about my children and their placement together as well. They ball faced lie about a lot but... well my lawyer should have listened to me when i brought up the concern that no where in the paperwork had cps ever divulged anything about the contact information or even the names of the people my children were supposedly placed with, just talked out of their ass about it. She dismissed it but... i already knew how important what they didn't say actually was, a lie of omission. Purposefully misreading and thinking "misleading" is any less than a ball faced lie. Somewhere deep down in their dark blackened hearts they actually have a tiny bit of guilt i like to think anyway... either way, i think they burned their own goodness away with their own evils... if ever they find it, it won't be as they are now. Not as CPS. This needs more work than i think even our governor can possibly imagine but... many of us can, because we have lived it so... we need to raise our voices and make sure she can hear us, for our own children's futures. so they don't go after them next when they grow up.
I wish for it to be different but if many of us do not
fight and keep fighting i fear it will only keep happening over and over
again as it has for many years already.
All too often, the law fails us all.
-Luna
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